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~ Monday, February 25 2013~
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My brain just told myself to “stop eating and start working out again, you are getting really fucking fat lately”

and that, my friends, is why this is a mental illness

BECAUSE THAT IS CRAZY

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~ Tuesday, January 29 2013~
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insight-inspiration:

pureselfdestruction:

thinn-in-skinn:


eveningfades:

She was 19 and suffered from Anorexia and Bulimia for 5 years. Died at 5’ 1” (155cm) and 94 lbs (43kg) after her stomach ripped after eating 5.6 liters of food.
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She was in full rigor mortis - which is present from 12-72 hours. The bruises set the time frame at around 8+ hours. Her eyes had clouded, which happens at progressively from about 2 -4 hours on. If you look really closely at her stomach, you can see a greenish tint, which is a typical sign of her internal organs decaying - called livor mortis. I think this process may have been accelerated as her insides were digested since it normally takes a few days to set in. The bruises called for the autopsy. Because of her position when her stomach exploded, it spilled all its contents into her body cavity. The blood and food settled around her anus and vagina and caused what looked like “fresh bruises.” So to rule out sexual [assault, etc.], they had to autopsy. When they did the autopsy, they found that her stomach had been extended from where your ribs meet each other all the way to her pubic bone, right behind that pad of fat above the genitals (mons pubis). And her stomach had a large rip in it… She also had some other abnormalities going on. Her heart was small and displayed typical characteristics of a starving heart - destroyed muscles and dead immune cells (lipofuscin bodies). Her brain had swelled, my guess due to the massive increase in blood flow after her stomach ruptured - it had started to squeeze out her skull before she died. She also had evidence of focal pneumonia in her lungs - not really surprising as starvation hurts the immune response to viruses.
Like a typical binger, her stomach was dying before it ripped. What I mean is that every time we binge our stomachs expand, if they expand far enough, the vessels supplying them blood are crushed - cutting off the blood supply to that area, killing the tissue. That area is weakened and the next binge of that caliber becomes more dangerous. Purging just adds fuel to the fire by increasing stomach pressure above and beyond the natural level.
But believe it or not the ruptured stomach didn’t kill her. A natural reaction did:
When the stomach exploded, her body responded with a typical immune reaction. It dilated her blood vessels, her blood pressure dropped, she blacked out, and her heart slowed down and stopped. They also did a tox screen and found nothing. Potassium levels are obviously of no use as when you die potassium leaks out of your cells. Another things to note about this. Back in the 1800s, they determined that the stomach should only be able to hold 4 liters of stuff (by filling corpses). To surpass this, we have to adapt our stomach sizes - resulting in gastric dilatation.
Ruptures via overfilling the stomach appear along the lesser curvature of the stomach, whereas vomiting induced ruptures normally occur along the greater curvature and fundus (the top of the stomach) - it’s unusual that her stomach ripped how it did, right down the front.
Apart from the intellectual value of the report it does illustrate an important point - the endpoint of these diseases is very ugly. There is no glamour or beauty spending your last living moments over a toilet.

I’ve reblogged this a few times. I feel like it’s necessary. 


just need to reblog this. 

Reblog going because this is the scariest thing I’ve ever read.

insight-inspiration:

pureselfdestruction:

thinn-in-skinn:

eveningfades:

She was 19 and suffered from Anorexia and Bulimia for 5 years. Died at 5’ 1” (155cm) and 94 lbs (43kg) after her stomach ripped after eating 5.6 liters of food.

Case notes:

She was in full rigor mortis - which is present from 12-72 hours. The bruises set the time frame at around 8+ hours. Her eyes had clouded, which happens at progressively from about 2 -4 hours on.
If you look really closely at her stomach, you can see a greenish tint, which is a typical sign of her internal organs decaying - called livor mortis. I think this process may have been accelerated as her insides were digested since it normally takes a few days to set in.
The bruises called for the autopsy. Because of her position when her stomach exploded, it spilled all its contents into her body cavity. The blood and food settled around her anus and vagina and caused what looked like “fresh bruises.” So to rule out sexual [assault, etc.], they had to autopsy.
When they did the autopsy, they found that her stomach had been extended from where your ribs meet each other all the way to her pubic bone, right behind that pad of fat above the genitals (mons pubis). And her stomach had a large rip in it…
She also had some other abnormalities going on. Her heart was small and displayed typical characteristics of a starving heart - destroyed muscles and dead immune cells (lipofuscin bodies).
Her brain had swelled, my guess due to the massive increase in blood flow after her stomach ruptured - it had started to squeeze out her skull before she died. She also had evidence of focal pneumonia in her lungs - not really surprising as starvation hurts the immune response to viruses.

Like a typical binger, her stomach was dying before it ripped. What I mean is that every time we binge our stomachs expand, if they expand far enough, the vessels supplying them blood are crushed - cutting off the blood supply to that area, killing the tissue. That area is weakened and the next binge of that caliber becomes more dangerous. Purging just adds fuel to the fire by increasing stomach pressure above and beyond the natural level.

But believe it or not the ruptured stomach didn’t kill her. A natural reaction did:

When the stomach exploded, her body responded with a typical immune reaction. It dilated her blood vessels, her blood pressure dropped, she blacked out, and her heart slowed down and stopped. They also did a tox screen and found nothing. Potassium levels are obviously of no use as when you die potassium leaks out of your cells.
Another things to note about this. Back in the 1800s, they determined that the stomach should only be able to hold 4 liters of stuff (by filling corpses). To surpass this, we have to adapt our stomach sizes - resulting in gastric dilatation.

Ruptures via overfilling the stomach appear along the lesser curvature of the stomach, whereas vomiting induced ruptures normally occur along the greater curvature and fundus (the top of the stomach) - it’s unusual that her stomach ripped how it did, right down the front.

Apart from the intellectual value of the report it does illustrate an important point - the endpoint of these diseases is very ugly. There is no glamour or beauty spending your last living moments over a toilet.

I’ve reblogged this a few times. I feel like it’s necessary. 

just need to reblog this. 

Reblog going because this is the scariest thing I’ve ever read.

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~ Sunday, December 16 2012~
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~ Thursday, December 13 2012~
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4st—7lb:

I think I’m the only one here who’s not trying to get “well” and has embraced her shitty life.

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~ Thursday, December 6 2012~
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~ Tuesday, November 20 2012~
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Addiction is the only disease that tries to convince you that you don’t have it.
Impaired by Patricia Holloran (via recoveryored)
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~ Saturday, November 17 2012~
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The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen.
Elisabeth Kubler-Ross  (via thatkindofwoman)

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~ Friday, November 9 2012~
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But more importantly, it pains me to see that you don’t value yourself the way other people value you. You don’t know that you are a catch. Like, I bet this whole idea has never even occurred to you. You could read this entire article and not once think it was about you. It would surprise you that I’ve heard other women be jealous of you. It would shock you to know that men talk about how magnetic and radiant you are. It wouldn’t even cross your mind that these things could happen.

Beyond that though, you are wonderful and lovely. And you have no idea.
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~ Tuesday, July 24 2012~
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And to those of you who have made your way out, know it’s okay to forgive yourself. The process of recovery and walking away from my dream showed me the importance of forgiveness and owning our experiences. Own what you went through. Owning it releases the shame, and shame is what keeps us stuck. There is such power that emerges when we allow ourselves to forgive and let go of shame. We never need to punish ourselves for trying our best in what at the time felt like an impossible situation.
Jennifer Kirk, Olympic Figure Skater
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~ Monday, July 23 2012~
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~ Sunday, July 22 2012~
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~ Saturday, July 21 2012~
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~ Monday, July 2 2012~
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~ Friday, June 15 2012~
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~ Saturday, June 9 2012~
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Sophie cannot finish her dinner
She says she’s eaten enough
Sophie’s trying to make herself thinner
Says she’s eating too much
And her brother says, “You’re joking,”
And her mother’s heart is broken
Sophie has a hard time coping
And, besides, Sophie’s hoping

 
She can be like all the other girls
Be just like all the other girls
Living in an ordinary world
Just to fit in, in the ordinary world
Just to fit in like an ordinary girl.

Sophie’s losing weight by the minute
How did things get this bad?
Sophie’s family, they don’t understand it
Gave her all that they had
And her sister won’t stop crying
‘Cause her father says she’s dying
Sophie says she’s really trying
Problem is, Sophie’s lying.

How did she get this way?
How did she get this way?
Through trying to hide it.
What does it take to say,
What does it take to say
She’s dying, Sophie’s dying

Sophie by Eleanor Mcevoy

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